When your life is in total disarray, you feel exposed. Like when you're on drugs and you're sure that everyone can tell, but really, no one has any idea. And you just wish someone would come up to you and be like, "Hey man, did you just eat some acid?" And you would enthusiastically reply, "Yes, yes I did! Now please tell everyone so that I can stop keeping this stupid secret!"
But then that jackass would only be interested in where you got the acid to begin with, so it wouldn't matter.